Hello There.

My name is Sinclair (AKA Lotus) and I’m a booze free, high frequency, body positive, feminist psychonaut with a travel problem. I’m all about love, human connection, lotus spider fam vibes, and walking into the rainbow of your own authenticity. I quit my 9 to 5 and am now traveling the world, working, healing, and creating from wherever I am.

I make fancy ass costume hats as Fire Lotus Studio.

I’m the owner, web and graphic designer, content creator, and brand strategist at function + theory.

I’m a seasoned project manager, grant writer, and consultant with more than a decade of experience in events, development, data management, operations, and capacity building. I am currently in the process of moving to Ecuador to join the plant medicine family at Gaia Sagrada Shamanic Wellness Retreat Center outside Cuenca. It is my deepest life purpose to help people find self love, confidence, well being, and happiness through psychedelic integration, mindfulness, and body positivity. I help people be themselves.

Check out my resume on Linkedin here:ย I solve problems.

In June, I will be a 200HR Yoga Alliance Certified yoga teacher specializing in slow vinyasa flow, restorative, healing hatha, breathwork, guided meditation, and recovery and self love, body positive focused practices, always set to the sounds that move my heart, mind, and body.

Want to hire me? Get in touch.

Who I Am

I grew up in Amarillo, Texas – a vast, flat, surreal place where endless horizon meets boundless sky. As a young adult, I spent 17 years living in Austin, which became home. A couple years ago, I found myself in an unhealthy place of ever increasing stress, alcohol abuse, and fear about my life. I didn’t like where I was, and I didn’t know how to change it, all I knew was that I wasn’t being true to myself. I went to Burning Man and saw a glimpse of a light inside myself that I knew I had to uncover.

So I quit. I quit my life and burned it down. I quit my job I hated, I quit my expensive apartment, and I quit my house full of stuff. Then, I got into a very serious car accident, and quit my car, because it was mangled into a heap of death. But I lived. I quit Austin, because I just couldn’t afford to work less, live more, and stay in an expensive city. I lost all my money from my huge medical bills and ended up living in my mom’s house back in Amarillo.

The pristine magic of finding yourself at the bottom is that you have nothing standing in your way anymore. You are free to build the dream of your life into anything you want it to be.

Welcome to My Dream Life

I started this blog in August 2008 as a place to chronicle my personal trip through time and space. In the early years, I wrote about figuring out life + music + invisible boyfriends/magical duplex co-owners + dating disasters + friendship + loss + feminism + travel + quitting drinking + getting healthy + Burning Man, and the rest of the collective mishmash I like to geek out on. There will still be plenty of personal ephemera, but now I have a more focused purpose: sharing my own version of sage wisdom I’ve garnered through countless failures and false starts, traveling the world alone starting at age 40 and beyond, becoming a yoga teacher, and continuing my own personal exploration of the self through plant medicines.

Be yourself, be authentic, let go of your self doubt and replace it with self love, and life will open up to you in ways you cannot imagine. I want to share how I created my dream life, and how you can too.

There will still be a soundtrack because we can’t be totally magic without music. For full access to all my published playlists,ย follow me on Spotify.

Thanks for reading and enjoy your stay.

Love,